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Well, I got a job but I am not really that happy about the job because I really don't want to work evenings. I want days so I can get my sleep at night.  Plus I really don't like the nursing home I am working at because they deal too much with religion, and well, I really don't feel comfortable there at all. But I can't quit because if I do than Warren will leave me, and I really don't want that to happen. But then again I really don't want to work there but I know that right now I don't have a choice. So, I really don't know what I am going to do because I really don't like working when he is home from work because then it cuts down on our time to spend together. Just like I work tonight and tomorrow night until 8:30, and we need to go into Storm Lake tonight and we can't because I have to work. And they are giving the run around with going to school to get my CNA, and its really pissing me off. So, I have a lot of resent towards them, and well, I really don't want to work there. I would rather go and work somewhere else so I don't have to be around religion that much. And well, I feel like Warren lied to me because last night he told me that if I really didn't like it than I wouldn't have to go back. And well, I have to go back to work tonight and I am not looking forward to it, and I really don't want to go.

The only reason that I am is to make Warren happy, and because I know we need the money, and I would rather not work at a job that I hate. I want to work at a job that I can be happy with. I have learned that if you don't like a job than going to work all the time, its never fun, because you don't want to go to work. And well, we are going to look for jobs that are not around this area. And he is going to see if he can find a welding job or something that actually pays well, and then I won't have to work. Which I would like but we will see. I just really don't want to go to a job everyday that I hate because its just gonna make me miserable and depressed. I just don't know what else to do because I don't want him to leave me so I know that I have to keep working even though I really hate this job, and I know that its the only way to keep him happy. And hopefully, I can talk to Walmart today and see if they can offer me a job working days as a cashier because I would really like that better. Well, I am going to end this for now because I have things to do before my family steps lady comes, and well, I am just too depressed to even write more.


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