whats going on
me
sexymama1986
Well, I got a job but I am not really that happy about the job because I really don't want to work evenings. I want days so I can get my sleep at night.  Plus I really don't like the nursing home I am working at because they deal too much with religion, and well, I really don't feel comfortable there at all. But I can't quit because if I do than Warren will leave me, and I really don't want that to happen. But then again I really don't want to work there but I know that right now I don't have a choice. So, I really don't know what I am going to do because I really don't like working when he is home from work because then it cuts down on our time to spend together. Just like I work tonight and tomorrow night until 8:30, and we need to go into Storm Lake tonight and we can't because I have to work. And they are giving the run around with going to school to get my CNA, and its really pissing me off. So, I have a lot of resent towards them, and well, I really don't want to work there. I would rather go and work somewhere else so I don't have to be around religion that much. And well, I feel like Warren lied to me because last night he told me that if I really didn't like it than I wouldn't have to go back. And well, I have to go back to work tonight and I am not looking forward to it, and I really don't want to go.

The only reason that I am is to make Warren happy, and because I know we need the money, and I would rather not work at a job that I hate. I want to work at a job that I can be happy with. I have learned that if you don't like a job than going to work all the time, its never fun, because you don't want to go to work. And well, we are going to look for jobs that are not around this area. And he is going to see if he can find a welding job or something that actually pays well, and then I won't have to work. Which I would like but we will see. I just really don't want to go to a job everyday that I hate because its just gonna make me miserable and depressed. I just don't know what else to do because I don't want him to leave me so I know that I have to keep working even though I really hate this job, and I know that its the only way to keep him happy. And hopefully, I can talk to Walmart today and see if they can offer me a job working days as a cashier because I would really like that better. Well, I am going to end this for now because I have things to do before my family steps lady comes, and well, I am just too depressed to even write more.

Writer's Block: I Love Lucy
me
sexymama1986
My favorite couple would be Lucy and Ricki, because I really loved watching I love Lucy, and for some reason I thought that Ricki's accent from Cuba, was really cute.

Update
me
sexymama1986

Wow!! I have been so busy lately that I have totally forgot about blogging. I have been doing nothing to exciting except for working and things like that. And I have also been staying home a lot cuz there isn't much to do. I mean it costs too much to go to the thearte, and well, here in Schaller the only place to rent movies is Sparkys and well, they really don't have a good selection of movies. And it costs too much to drive into Storm Lake and go to Malarkys when it costs 5 dollars to get in the door and then the owner stands at the door, and if he doesn't like what you are wearing you get told to go home and change. Plus the drinks there for me are too expensive.

So, Warren and I have decided that if we want to have an alcoholic beverage we will just go to the store and buy it and then come home. But we hardly do that anymore. And right now it is really not in out budget to buy it. I can't believe its July already. It seems like this year is going by fast. We have not had too much going on. Basically Warren and I both go to work, come home, take care of Ariel, sleep, eat, and watch tv, and play games. Ariel is cutting more teeth right now. And she right now has 4, the 2 front bottom, 2 front top and then she is working on the 2 on the top next to the 2 she has. She is crawling everywhere now, so its time to put up the baby gate!!! She is also pulling herself up on pretty much everything she can.

She got to go to her first 4th of July parade last Friday in Storm Lake, and she was good. Although she wanted to be carried by mom and didn't want anyone else except for Grandpa, and she really didn't want to sit in her stroller. But she was a good girl, and she seemed to enjoy it. Warren and I dropped her back off in Schaller with his parents after we ate supper with my parents cuz she is still a little too young to be at the fireworks, and plus she was tired and really really cranky cuz her tooth started to bother her. Plus the fireworks in Storm Lake this year were louder and brighter than last which for me and my dad was great cuz we like the really loud ones. Plus Warren and I were talking about the fact that last year there was a bottle rocket that exploded next to my stomach when I was pregnant and we were actually kind of worried and scared that it might happen again this year so that was the other reason we didn't take Ariel.

And our landlord is pissing us off again, but of course that is becoming something that isn't new. On a fucking holiday our landlord called the guy that Warren rides to work with cuz the landlord wanted him to know he 5 days til his rent was due and he wanted money. I just can't fucking believe him, calling someone a fucking holiday, and yet when Warren and I called our landlord on a Saturday we got bitched at cuz he didn't want to be disturbed on the weekends or holidays. So, basically, we all know for a fucking fact that Don and Rae are not fucking paying rent, so now our landlord is after me, Warren and the other guy for more fucking money, so we can pay for someone else to live here.

Its a good thing I went and changed my phone number again cuz otherwise I might not have had a job. Our landlord called me on June 27th, twice within 2 fucking hours, and then he also called my job, and then on June 30th, he called my cell phone again, and then called my job. So, I went and changed my number cuz if I didn't more than likely I would have lost my job cuz of him. He is just that fucking stupid that he has to call and harass me, Warren and this other guy for money when he fucking needs to harass Don and Rae since they are the only ones not paying fucking rent and when they come home from the road they don't even fucking stay in their apartment, they stay somewhere else. So, our landlord just needs to fucking kick them out.

But well, enough on that. Other than shit like that going on things are going pretty well right now. We are still dealing with a leaky closet roof that still isn't fixed a year later after moving into this apartment. I can't believe that next month Ariel is going to be a year old. Time goes by fast. Well, I really don't have much else to say right now so I am going to end this for now.


whats going on
me
sexymama1986

Well, right now I am just sitting at home listening to music and relaxing. Wishing that I didn't have to go to work cuz I am still sick and I am still coughing a lot and I can only take my cough medicine every 4 to 6 hours as needed for my cough. And well, I would rather just stay at home and rest so I can get better before next weekend. The only other bad part is that I am now taking Warren to work and picking him up from work because his ride really fucking pissed me off, and I am not going to fucking deal with his shit.

I guess Don and Rae are not paying rent because our landlord is on me and Warren for more money, plus John the guy Warren used to get rides from hasn't fucking paid our landlord either. So, he is expecting me and Warren to fucking pay more fucking money for other people to live here and I am not fucking going to do it. Its not my fucking problem if they are not paying the landlord. And I really don't fucking need my landlord bitching at me or even wanting me to fucking relay messages to John cuz John is a dumbass and won't answer his phone or return our landlords phone call. At least I answer the phone if I am not sick, sleeping or busy doing something or I go into his office and talk to him.

I get enough bitching when I go to work cuz Tina, the head checker does not like any of my jeans. So, I don't need to go in and pay our landlord and have him bitch at me cuz Don and Rae are not paying rent and John won't answer his phone calls or whatever. So, I just fucking said that I would be taking Warren to work and picking him up except next Friday cuz I have to be to work at 7:30 and I don't get off until 4 pm, so I am not sure what he will do about that. But we will figure something out.

I am really not looking forward to working today or this weekend at all. Especially today since I am still not feeling well, and I should be resting but you gotta do what you gotta do. Well, I am not really sure what else to talk about so for now I am just gonna end this cuz I am gonna go take a shower cuz in about an hour I have to leave for Quimby to get Warren before I go to work. I will write tonight when I get home.


whats going on
me
sexymama1986

Well, right now, I am just sitting here at home relaxing on my day off. I am just listening to music and blogging cuz I don't have much to do. I will probably do some dishes but not sure. I am thinking about getting my hair cut if I can find a place that will cut it for not too expensive. Otherwise I am just going to wait until I get paid again. Well, Ariel crawled for the first time Thursday night when we were at my mom's house. So, now its time to put breakable things up, and baby proof the house.

We went yesterday to see my Grandma and my grandma actually looked better this time than she did the last time I saw her. Everyone was there. So, I got to see Bev, Bob, Bernie, and Irene, so that was nice. Sometime soon I am hoping to get over to Washta to see my cousin, Loni. But not sure when that will be though cuz we work opposite weekends. I work next weekend and she has it off but we can figure something out. My sister came home this weekend for a wedding, and she went back to Des Moines early yesterday cuz a levy broke in Des Moines. I can't believe all this flooding we are having in Iowa. My sister-in-law and brother live in Cedar Rapids and my sister-in-law hasn't had to work since last Tuesday cuz downtown Cedar Rapids was flooded, and then on Thursday night my brother called to let us know that they were heading to my sister-in-law's brother's house in Washington, Iowa.

But I can believe it though when we have had so much rain. This last round of storms that we had last week Wednesday night, was horrible. We got stuck at my mom's house until 9:30 pm, and the corner of East 9th st, and Windsor Circle was flooded, and the corner of East 9th st and Erie was flooded, and so was Lake Avenue. My Grandma Harskamp had a lake in her backyard, and my mom's house right off their patio and then their whole yard was also a lake. Plus we had to take and move some furniture around in the basement cuz some antique furniture was getting wet. Plus they have a lot of water coming up through cracks in the floor. I am just glad that we have had some really nice days now.

Plus in Lakeside I have never seen the dam with that much water coming over it, plus that is a lot of water that is moving through there, too. I am just hoping that we don't keep getting heavy rains. When I worked on Sunday June 8th, we opened at 11 and within the first 10 minutes of being opened we made 6,000 dollars, and all we did was sold out of sump pumps. Good for the company though. Well, this work I work Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Its my weekend to work. I really don't know what else to write cuz nothing exciting has been going on with us. We have just been pretty much staying home and watching tv, and trying to spend time together when John isn't texting us all the fucking time.

It just gets so annoying when Warren comes home from work and he can't even fucking be in the damn house for 5 minutes without John fucking texting, and its starting to piss me off to the point that I am about ready to say something. Just like Friday night after I got paid I came and got Warren and we went and got some grocieries and shit, and we just got home at like 8, and fucking John sends a text to both of us saying what are you guys doing tonight? And I can't fucking take it anymore. Plus its really pathetic that John is only like 25 or 26 or somethig like that, and he has to rely on Warren to wake him up in the morning. And John always wants to leave Schaller but 5:15 am, and he can't even fucking get out of bed, and I feel like he is putting Warren's job in jepordy when he can't fucking get himself up.

And I swear that if John does anything to ruin Warren's job, I will have some nasty ass fucking words for him. Plus since he hasn't paid Jim, our landlord, I am more than likely gonna get a phone call from Jim cuz he is going to expect me and Warren to give him more money cuz he hasn't gotten any money from John. And I am not going to live like we did when we first moved into this place, and Jim let that one lady live in that apartment where John is at for free, cuz I am not fucking going to pay for someone else to fucking live here for free. Cuz if I have to do that again Warren and I will find a new fucking place to live, so we can just pay for ourselves to live in the apartment. Plus Jim can't fucking fix anything we have asked him to fix, and that is really starting to piss me off.

So, I am going to take matters into my own hands, since he doesn't want to fix a leaky roof, or anything like that. I mean Warren and I could have had help from HUD for rent, but since Jim doesn't want to fix anything the apartment we live in would not be approved unless Jim does a lot of work. Well, I am going to end this for now, I might write again later, but not sure yet.


whats going on
me
sexymama1986

Well, yesterday was not a bad day at work except for the fact that I was really shaking yesterday, so now I am on another pill that I have to take 4 times a day for my shaking. I am hoping that the pills works cuz otherwise I am not sure what I am gonna do if they don't. Well, right now I am just sitting her blogging and watcing the tv programs that I have taped cuz I didn't get a chance to watch them all yesterday before I went to work. Well, according to Rob and Tina at work I am only gonna have to work until 5 today, which is gonna be nice cuz then I will not be so tired tomorrow for my cousin's wedding.

I am just really excited that we can go to it and well, its gonna be nice for everyone to see how much Ariel has changed since they last saw her back in December. And some of my family like Nadiene has not seen her in person except for pictures. I am also just thinking about everything that has gone on this week. And I have been really doing a lot of thinking on a lot of shit. Since gas prices are getting to be so damn high and the prices usually go up just about 5 cents everyday and its getting kind of ridicilous but well, there is not much we can do about it.

So, I am actually thinking about trading my Pontaic for a new car that gets better gas mileage than mine does. And I have a couple in mind, but I just got to wait to see if the company that I am working with will let me get the loan with both of our incomes. I really hope they do. But well, its getting closer to the end of May and well, I am getting really really nervous about Ariel's surgery that is coming up. I know that it is something that has to be done, but I am still worried about it cuz she is only 9 months and well, I really don't want to see her in pain. And once we get back home from Omaha she will not be going anywhere until she is fully healed cuz I don't need anyone being stupid around her. And well, Warren and I will not be going anywhere either. Considering when I was in Storm Lake on Wednesday gas there was only 3.69 and then yesterday gas everywhere in Storm Lake was at 3.75, and from what I have read on the computer yesterday is that gas prices will probably hit 4 dollars a gallon by the end of the weekend.

So, well, Warren and I are really not going to be doing any extra driving thats for damn sure. We can't afford to do any extra driving at all. And well, once we get somethings taken care of I know whether or not both of our incomes is enough for me to trade cars then we will be taking a trip to South Dakota and get the other car. I know my car insurance is going to go up once I get a newer car but its gonna be worth it in the long haul. And well, then maybe we could take and start doing some fun things. But until then we are not gonna be able to. I mean its bad enough all I do is drive to Storm Lake to Bomgaars to work and then I come home back and the only other driving I do is to my parents house on my lunch break. And I go to Cherokee every 2 weeks to meet with my therapist but that is about it. Otherwise we just stay at home or go for walks in town. But its just gas is too fucking high to drive around.

That is why tomorrow we have to be to my parents house so Emma can stop by and see us, plus they are gonna drive to the wedding so we don't have to use our gas plus my car has been acting up the past couple days so I don't want to go too far. I suppose I better end this for now. I am hoping that maybe I will be off at 4 instead of 5 but if not and I have to work until 5 that is fine with me. I already have my schedule for next week and well, next week I work: Sunday May 25=11 am to 5 pm, Monday May 26=off, Tuesday May 27=9 am to 8 pm, Wednesday May 28=9 am to 5 pm, Thursday May 29=off, Friday May 30=7:30 am to 5 pm, and Saturday May 31= 9am to 6pm, and then I will have Sunday June 1=off. I next weekend is actually suppose to be my weekend off but a gal that I work with needed to have the 31st off and so I traded with her and she is working this Saturday for me and then I work for her on the 31st and she will work on June 1 and I will work the 25th. I will write again later.


whats going on
me
sexymama1986
 

Well, I worked last thursday, friday, and then saturday and sunday. And on Saturday I was off 15 minutes early and yesterday I was off an hour early. And well, things at work are going good. I have been pretty much running the register by myself  and only asking questions about the things that I have not rung up yet. And this Friday is gonna be my first paycheck and I am really excited about it even though its not going to be that big of a check but at least its something.

And well, I work today from 7:30 am to 4 pm and then I have tomorrow and Wednesday off and then work thursday and Frday and then I have the weekend off which I am totally excited about cuz I am hoping that we can find 2 more people to help us rearrange the bedroom. But I am not sure if we will be able to or not, Warren has to do some measuring first before we can even think about rearranging the bedroom. And well, tonight Warren has to take a lower Ariel's mattress in her crib cuz its getting to the time where one of these days she is gonna learn how to pull herself up and well, we don't need her falling out of her crib or anything. Well, I really don't have much to say right now, and well, once I get home from work I will try to write again and let everyone know how work went today, and if I don't then I will write tomorrow morning. Later!


Whats going on
me
sexymama1986
Well, right now I am just sitting at home and just killing time until I have to be at Warren's parents house, to help get things ready and then we will be taking off to Omaha cuz Ariel has to see an eye specialist cuz her right eye waters constantly, and it always gets mattered. And so hopefully he will either do surgery or he will just give us eye drops or something that will help with this. But if he doesn't do surgery that is fine, too cuz well, not sure if he would do surgery on her since she is only 8 months. Although who knows for sure what he will do cuz I have never heard of him and I don't know how he works or anything. Although I am not looking forward to spending most of the day with his parents but it is something that I know has to be done and there was no way around it. And I am hoping that once Ariel is done seeing the doctor we can just come back to Schaller cuz I have got somethings that I need to do and phone calls to make about a job, and I need to take a shower, and shit.

Well, I have my music on right now and the stupid dumb fuckers are home and I don't fucking care cuz of the stupid bullshit that they pulled this weekend.  And well, I am not going to fucking put up with anymore fucking stupidity from them cuz they can't fucking respect the other people that live in this house. And well, my music is not that fucking loud and well, what are they going to do call the cops and I will say that they purposely all fucking weekend slammed the doors and shit. And I just can't believe that they would be so fucking dumb and think just cuz they live here they can slam all the doors in their apartment and shit all the fucking time. And well, our landlord wont do shit. And well, they fucking told me on Friday that if we didn't like it than we could move and well, Warren and I lived here way before them and well, we wouldn't have any fucking problems if they could have respect for the other people that live here especially us since we have a child that is only 8 months old. And well, all they are inbreed mother fuckers that don't fucking know shit. And well, I am tired of fucking listening to them slamming shit all the time. And well, I just can't fucking stand it anymore. And if they don't fucking quit than well there will be hell to pay cuz when they are home since I am not watching Ariel during the day I will make sure that when I get up with Warren at 4 am and after him and John leave for work I will start vaccuming and shit. And then what the fuck are they going to do cuz they can't do shit. Well, right now I am just sitting here and and searching sites for ringtones for my phone. And I probably should get going so I can finish getting my shit ready cuz I plan on being at his parents house at 7:45 or 7:50 cuz we are leaving at 8 am sharp. Well, I will write again once I get home. Later!
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update
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sexymama1986
Well, I figured I had better give an update on what is going on with me. Well, Warren has been sick and all he has left is a cough. And his dad is feeling better now, too. I am now sick. I started getting sick last Thursday, and I thought I just I had the start of a cold so, I was taking dayquil and nightquil, but then on Sunday I started having diarrhea and my fever has come back, and I talked to my mom and she said that I have the stomach flu. And well, right now I don't need Ariel getting sick especially since she has to go to Omaha on Monday and she can't be sick for that. And well, I don't care if Ariel is home at night but until I am better she needs to be dropped off at his parents house before he leaves for work in the morning. Until I get better cuz we don't need her getting sick and especially this. And the one thing that makes me so frustrated is that when one of Warren's parents get sick they don't hesitate calling us and saying that we need to come and get her, but yet when I am sick with the stomach flu, they don't care. 

Plus Warren and I need to start working on shit, so we don't fight when Ariel is home. Plus I would like it when people would respect the fact that I am sick and I need my rest, and I don't want Ariel getting sick. And no one can respect that. I mean his mom calls me at 6:30 in the morning last Thursday and tells me that I need to come and get Ariel cuz Warren's dad is sick with flu. And I had just taken cough medicine an hour before she called, so I was drowsy. And I watched her all day Thursday and then part of Friday cuz I had a fever so bad that I was becoming very weak and really really dizzy, so that would not have been good if I would have fainted with her here or even holding her or carrying her to her room to change her. And well, I love my daughter so much but I don't want her to get the flu I know that she is going to get sick but I am hoping that she doesn't get the flu right now. She needs to be able to go to Omaha on the 28th so we can find out why her eye is watering all the time. And if I don't get any better by then Warren will have to take off from work and go with his parents that day. Well, anyway, I really don't have much to say right now cuz nothing much is going on right now.  Write again later!

Life sucks
me
sexymama1986
Well, this week has kind of sucked, but I am hoping that the rest of the week goes well. Right now I am just sitting at home watching some shows that I have taped. And I am also thinking about a lot of things, like why I am losing all my friends. Well, actually the one friend I didn't want to loose I think I may have lost her. And well, I am just trying to figure out what is going on with her and why all of a sudden she doesn't want me to send her friend requests or even talk to her. And I just want to know why and what I have done to her. Although I am pretty sure that Amanda Peck is behind the whole fucking mess with Mindy. And right now I really don't want to lose Mindy cuz she is only one that I can pretty much call when I need someone to talk to. And we have been friends since 1st grade even though we have had our share of fights and well, for some reason we have also fought over guys when we were in middle school. And when Mindy has needed to talk I am there for her day or night. She is like my sister and I would do anything for Mindy.

She has done a lot for me over the years, and she is such a beautiful girl on the inside and on the outside. Mindy has a lot of good qualities about her, and she is going to make a great mother and a wife to a good man. And I just wish that I knew what was going on and why I got that message on Monday about leaving her alone. I mean I don't want to be friends with Amanda Peck because all she does is create drama for everyone, and well, since she couldnt fucking defend me when one of dans fucking dumb ass friends was starting shit with me and Warren and it just goes to show that she would rather stick up for one of dans loser friends instead of sticking up for a friend that has always been there for her. Especially when her one boyfriend that fathered her son almost hit her and shit, I was always there. And when another friend was saying shit about Amanda I was always sticking up for her. And she just can't realize a true friend when its staring her in the face. I mean because of her bullshit I am more than likely going to loose a friend that I have had since 1st grade. I mean Amanda just needs to grow up and start acting like she is 21 or 22, instead of acting like she is a little kid. I mean I just can't believe that she would just fucking let some punk ass talk to me like that after everything we have been through. I just don't get it. 

Well, anyway, I called this morning and my car is done getting fixed so I am able to go and pick it up whenever I feel like calling Warren's dad and letting him know that its done, and we need to pick it up. I am hoping that this is the last major thing we have to fix with my car, cuz I am not sure if we can afford to fix it too much longer. Well, anyway, I just got back from getting my car and the window looks good. Now the next task is getting window tint and putting it back on the rear window to help keep the sun out of Ariel's eyes when she is in the car. Well, anyway, right now I am just heating up some lunch and then after I am done eating I am going to take a shower, cuz once the post office opens back up I have to go down there and get a book of stamps. Well, I will end this for now, and write again later.

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